No more Neverneverland

Gotta grow up sometime.

This is the year I start being independent instead of being so dependent on other people. It's my duty to stay ahead of the curve, to keep track of things and make sure I'm doing what needs to be done before what doesn't need to be done.

What needs to be done? Plenty.

Schoolwork, again, takes precedence.
Work-work will be three full days a week.
Home-time, whether it be cleaning or just being at home, is up there on the list.
E hana ana i na mea Hawai'i ma ka mana limalima.

I got stuff to do, and very little stopping me from doing it.

My schedule is hectic, but whose isn't these days? Heck, half the day, my house is empty, save the dog. Best/Worst part about it is that the family is getting used to the idea of schedules being so out of whack that we barely get home in time to eat dinner before 8. It's great.

Here's the thing about this mindset I need to adopt/adapt to my daily routine: nothing about it suggest that I am never in control of my own situation.

This is something I still struggle with on a weekly basis. Do I own my life, or does my life own me? I don't like to think that everything else is telling me where to go, how to dress and what to be, but it creeps into my mind occasionally. This is the year that no one tells me who I need to be. It has to be.

Part of that is not letting anyone else talk for me, not letting anyone else be accountable for my actions but me.

I've been watching movies recently, Black Hawk Down, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, even the horribly-told Dragon Wars, and I can't help but wonder how the plot and characters in my life are going to be portrayed later on. It's an interesting feeling.